So lately I’ve been trying this thing called self-control. Where in the past I’d just throw myself into what I’m feeling, now I just really don’t want distractions from chasing after God.
Ok, I’ll just come right out and say it. I’ve been kinda crushin’ on someone, teehee. I’ve been able to keep the hormones at bay most of the time, but lately I’ve been having dreams, certain images by others when being prayed for, and other coincidences that I’m weary to associate them with certain someone because the devil knows my weaknesses as much as God does. And even if yeah he is a pretty Godly man, I’m hesitant to act on these things because the situation is possibly being used against me by the enemy to distract me from my walk with God. And at this point I’m keeping my eyes on the prize, and if He sees fit to place someone beside me while I’m running to Him then so be it. But let my eyes be forever focused on the Lord.
Yesterday afternoon (I had slept most of my day), I prayed as I was waking up for more discernment from things of the enemy and things of the Lord. I also prayed for a verse to strengthen me in following his way. I don’t know every verse in the Bible, so when God told me “Psalm 119,” I was pleasantly surprised. Psalm 119 is really long, so here are a few that stood out to me:
How can young people keep their way pure?
By guarding it according to your word.
With my whole heart I seek you;
do not let me stray from your commandments.
I treasure your word in my heart,
so that I may not sin against you.
Blessed are you, O Lord;
teach me your statutes.
With my lips I declare
all the ordinances of your mouth.
I delight in the way of your decrees
as much as in all riches.
I will meditate on your precepts,
and fix my eyes on your ways.
I will delight in your statutes;
I will not forget your word
Teach me, O Lord, the way of your statutes,
and I will observe it to the end.
Give me understanding, that I may keep your law
and observe it with my whole heart.
Lead me in the path of your commandments,
for I delight in it.
Turn my heart to your decrees,
and not to selfish gain.
Turn my eyes from looking at vanities;
give me life in your ways.
Confirm to your servant your promise,
which is for those who fear you.
Turn away the disgrace that I dread,
for your ordinances are good.
See, I have longed for your precepts;
in your righteousness give me life.
You have dealt well with your servant,
O Lord, according to your word.
Teach me good judgment and knowledge,
for I believe in your commandments.
Before I was humbled I went astray,
but now I keep your word.
You are good and do good;
teach me your statutes.
The arrogant smear me with lies,
but with my whole heart I keep your precepts.
Their hearts are fat and gross,
but I delight in your law.
It is good for me that I was humbled,
so that I might learn your statutes.
The law of your mouth is better to me
than thousands of gold and silver pieces.
Your word is a lamp to my feet
and a light to my path.
I have sworn an oath and confirmed it,
to observe your righteous ordinances.
I am severely afflicted;
give me life, O Lord, according to your word.
Accept my offerings of praise, O Lord,
and teach me your ordinances.
I hold my life in my hand continually,
but I do not forget your law.
The wicked have laid a snare for me,
but I do not stray from your precepts.
Your decrees are my heritage forever;
they are the joy of my heart.
I incline my heart to perform your statutes
forever, to the end.
Let my cry come before you, O Lord;
give me understanding according to your word.
Let my supplication come before you;
deliver me according to your promise.
My lips will pour forth praise,
because you teach me your statutes.
My tongue will sing of your promise,
for all your commandments are right.
Let your hand be ready to help me,
for I have chosen your precepts.
I long for your salvation, O Lord,
and your law is my delight.
Let me live that I may praise you,
and let your ordinances help me.
I have gone astray like a lost sheep; seek out your servant,
for I do not forget your commandments